photo by Aaron Michael Brown
I'm chasing dreams and I enjoy every minute of it.
I am playing games with what if's and I'm roll'n deep,
chin high and shoulders tight.
Life has treated me well.
Lets get out of this town and make history.
Years may pass and people could start talking,
but we know our journey and we will continue
chin high and eyes in flight.
Let that inspiration swell.
There is so much out there that we could miss.
There is so much out there that we could learn.
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Can we talk?
Can we catch up with what we have missed? Can we create a bond that can grow and flourish? I have a feeling like there are so many stories I have yet to hear. There is inspiration at every corner, yet I have walked the hallways blind and covered my face on each ninety degrees of motivation. I feel as though my inspiration has taken a fall for time and while I just create illustrations without that drive to know what I really want, I lack the choice to stop. It isn't that my art suffers, but I suffer with the knowledge that I can create something better. I want to create a piece that can reach in to someone's chest and touch that beating thing we call a heart. I want my art not only shock the observer, but make them question who they are as a human being. Art will always be my life and to give that up in a moment of creativity block would be like kicking a leg that is already broken; it is already weakened, it is already breathless, it is already pushing up daisies. I need some awakening.
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I have a friend that will be leaving in a week.
I will miss her dearly.
Whether it was talking about how we lived so close back home, yet we never did anything there together or sitting back and watching a movie while accidentally burning popcorn twice in a row (that would be my doing),
I will miss her dearly.
Whether it was moments where we would not see each other for long periods of time and talk on the side or moments of looking at each other face to face and not saying a word,
I will miss her dearly.
I wish I spent more time with her as a friend, but that time has come and gone. Embrace those who are in your life, for they may be gone in a blink of an eye. The sad part about it is that you will not realize how much you will miss them until they are already gone, so take every opportunity given to show them how much you care for them.
"Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts.
And we are never, ever the same." - Flavia Weedn
Why do I reach for things that have "Out Of Bounds" written all over them?Why do I fall apart like 'Jenga' when one things goes wrong?Why do I find errors in moments that are out weighed by the perfections?Why do I always fall for the next thing in line? I sat in a car for a long drive today and me being the forgetful person I am, I forgot to charge my ipod after using it yesterday on the bus to Cedar Point. In that kind of situation, most people would turn to the radio, but this is me we are talking about. If I have a choice between mainstream (radio) music and silence, I would take the silence any day. Nothing against music on the radio, it's just not me, and there is also something about silence that humbles a person. You should try it sometime.
But with dead air, there comes moments to ponder. I kept focusing on what I have done these last few weeks and realized a few flaws I have left unshackled, if I say so myself.
Each one of these questions have an answer if I really tried to look for them, but is it the answer I am looking for? I spend all of this time questioning why I do things and how I do them, but I feel as though I should just sit back and tell myself:
"this is what makes me, me"
"this is what separates me from you"
"this is why I am Abstract Greene"
If I had one suggestion for you, it would be to sit in a silent car, on or off. Preferably off if you are parked in a garage with the doors closed. I don't want to be responsible for anyone dying of carbon monoxide intake. But while you are in that car, put it in park and pop the seat back and let your mind wonder. Let it hike the trail it has not been on for quite some time. Let it soak in the tub you have been filling the last few weeks. I bet you will find moments in your life worth the smiles and the attention. Although you have a question, a knack for finding flaws or even a disappointment, it's not the end of the world. Strut on to bigger and better breaths of fresh air. Maybe after three winks, you will realize that God has a plan for you.
What is it about one hug that makes me want to stay and savor the moment.
I come back to visit and to catch up with a few friends and I realize how much I have missed my second home. The place where I am always welcomed. The place where relationships have grown. Those people whom I have let out to dry and put on pause, only bless my presence when I get back. It may be summer and I do have an excuse for not being near them, but I do not have any excuse for totally losing contact. I apologize dearly to all whom that may pertain to. Life here in Elkhart is beyond my expectations and has kept every waking hour of my time busy, but I miss Fort Wayne. I am ready to be heading back and rejuvenating the fellowship I have put aside. Two more weeks.
Time passes; music plays,
Smiles are crossed and eyes gaze.
There are people,
might I say silhouettes,
paused amongst the crowd,
gawking at the two on stage.
They stand there singing their hearts out;
letting each word scream its own story,
scream its own passion,
scream its own journey.
I find myself drowning in the moment.
Nothing can touch me now.
July is ONE hour, TWO hugs, THREE winks, and a shower away. I want to send smiles out to all of you who have made my June worth while. Whether it was going out to Subway on a spur of the moment, having heartfelt conversations while assembling a puzzle, catching fish with my two darling cousins, Tylee and Dylan, or spending hours in the sun letting the grass slip between our toes or tickle our backs as we sprawled out staring at the clouds. Summer has finally begun. Life is wonderful.
But with July peeking around the corner, I can only look forward to an even better month. I plan to throw my sandals off once more and soak in the sun till my cheeks peel and my nose is cherry red. I plan to celebrate my 21st birthday on the 5th of July with friends and family. And I plan to become closer to those who I have not spent enough time with lately. It will be a month worth remembering and a month full of memories. So hats off to the ruby month, July, the seventh month on the Gregorian calendar, the warmest month in the northern hemisphere, and the month named after Julius Caesar. It will be great.
I will be back... I promise!!!
It has been weeks, if not months, since I have written in this blog.
Summer has hit and as much as I thought there would be that free time to write everyday and really get my name out there, I have been rubbing knuckles of one day to another, staying up late till my arms can't carry their own weight, and working my brain to the point where everything begins to become funny. You know exactly what I mean by that, and if you don't, how do you know me? lol
Anyway... There has been so many things to talk about but right now I just got back from a wedding and I don't have the brain capacity to tell each story in detail... so here I am promising that I will be writing if not everyday, every other day, to catch up on what I have to tell, share with you what has been on my mind, and reinvent my blog so that I don't end up being too busy to ever not write something. So till tomorrow... have a great night, take care and I will be back in action with some sleep under my belt.
Aaron C. Greene
